The Possibility of Everything

I am an optimist; a perennial one at that. Like Emily Dickinson, “I Dwell in Possibility”. After all, life has no guarantees and strife and struggles may quickly overtake us. I have not been guaranteed happiness, fortune, success, love, friendships, breath or pleasure. Does this mean I don’t have expectations? No! Although I admit I am not very good about making my needs known. I am working on this.

I am an optimist that tends to be longsuffering. In a relationship, whether as a parent, a friend, or a companion, I am more than likely to “give things time” even when my intuitive side has already warned me about the likely outcome of a particular situation. This may not make sense to others, but it’s helped me to live (overall) without regrets.

I came close to regrettable a few months ago. Within a matter of forty-eight hours, I made two life-changing decisions. The first was to NOT see someone that did not make me a priority but only an option and the second was to pursue the possibility of everything.

I only figured out my need for the possibility of everything within that timeframe. In fact, those were the exact words that popped into my mind as I was deciding what I wanted, and to an extent, what I deserve. I use the word “deserve” not because I am truly deserving but because somewhere in my limbic system my value was distorted. We all have something to “bring to the table”. There is only one me (and one you) thank goodness!

The possibility of everything doesn’t guarantee those things I mentioned above but it should remind us that we cannot have a relationship with anyone that is not pursuing the same. It’s easy to promise. It harder the day we have to keep those promises. Promising doesn’t make it so. Living and striving towards the possibility of everything together does.